Written by Crazy_Desire
17th January, my birthday. I don't really celebrate my birthday at all (because its a pagan practice), but today is a special day. Not because it is my birthday, It is because after over a year, I will finally come out with the truth on why I stop streaming between July 2022 and Jan 2023.
When I talk about my greatest failure, I'm not talking about banging Allan's mum nor about me losing followers and my discord. I hopefully aim to teach yall that your greatest failure could be your greatest gift. Why do we fall? To get back up stronger again.
The year 2021 was a great year for me. I got accepted to do a PhD program at a university and I moved over in glee to my new city. When I got to my new apartment, I would stream well over 20hrs a week streaming to the bois. As I started to begin my PhD program, the stream times sat a nice 4 times a week for around 2-4hrs per stream. I had a lot of fun. A good growing community and great fun times streaming. Every stream I tried making special. I did spooktober. I did the $10 challenges (which will be back!). I did the crundies. I even did a trial stream when seb was posting naked black men in the discord. We did a lot of great events. This lasted until around June 2022.
As you may have figured out, I wasn't doing so well in my studies. A few days behind fell to a few weeks behind which fell to me working on simpler tasks. I never failed in school or on my degree EVER. I always have been a top achiever, getting the best marks. So how could I be struggling here?
Things got so bad in June 2022, that the stress was poisoning my mind. I had so much work, and so much worry yet no motivation. Fear could not compel me to do work. I was frozen in time, like a deer in headlights. This mind poison kept getting worse and worse. My final true stream was on July 4th 2022, Seb's birthday. I always tried to do special birthday streams for the bois but this stream was different. I still remember it. We were playing rec room, and I remember where were on this rollercoaster map. Seb was having fun but I just couldnt. The mind virus had taken me. I was too worried about work and was depressed. I decided that day, I had to stop streaming to save my studies.
I've had to remove a lot of detail throughout the blog, and a lot of stories here that fully represent truthfully what the mind virus did to me. Maybe I will tell them far in the future. For now, I'm keeping it vague.
A few weeks later from Seb's birthday, I moved out of my apartment as my lease was ending and I returned home. I made an official announcement on stream, while playing some Minecraft parkour, on me leaving twitch. Months went and I suffered from the mind's viruses poison, until December 2022 came. I knew I had pretty much failed my studies.
I had moved before as I had a feeling I would fail and I needed people around me to keep me sane. My anxiety turned into void. I officially left my program in early January. I felt more free as I was partially cured.
I started streaming again in January 2023. Although over half of my community was gone, I realised that I just loved interacting with the community. It is what has kept me happy. I realised the massive mistake I made when I stopped streaming. I just made things worse, not better. I enjoyed the unemployement life for 2 weeks then I started panicking about getting a new job.
When I got a job 5 months later, I never felt so relieved. Happiness had finally returned back to my life. I did it. I endured the battle and came victorious. Our community grew and I met some fantastic people (you know who you are <3 ). I went from a brokie in a deep pit of despair to a happy content life enjoyer.
My greatest failure was me failing my PhD program, but now I am honestly glad I am out of it. Looking back now, I am in a much better part in my career and life than I would have been if I finished that PhD. I thought I was finished if I failed but I guess God has plans for all of us.
I hope you all enjoyed this blog post. I haven't written a blog in over 9 months! I'll try to write more, I promise. I kept this story quite vague as I do not want some of you to stalk or harass me over this (I think we know who these culprits are). Anyways, see you all soon!
kind regards,
Lord and Supreme Leader, Crazy Desire the seventeeth
17th January, my birthday. I don't really celebrate my birthday at all (because its a pagan practice), but today is a special day. Not because it is my birthday, It is because after over a year, I will finally come out with the truth on why I stop streaming between July 2022 and Jan 2023.
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